I dreamed of Marley( my daughter who pasted  a few years back) last night. It was peaceful and she  smiled at me.. I woke up with Goose (my cat) laying asleep on my chest. It was sweet. I wiped my eyes a bit...half pollen  and half tears. I'm going to be a dad again one day and I'm afraid I will not be able to protect them from death. Life feels like wood working......the wood has it's own shapes and you can use it or fight it but it's still going to be wood. I can't control everything and my fear is apart of that. The world was not made for me nor I for it but we try each day because that is what we do.  I was finishing "Stars......dream" painting today and I noticed I felt the lines as if they were finger prints inside my soul like a cave has growths of calcium. .....I can't be fearless or perfect but I can be nature and try and live and do and be and love and cry and fear and run and jump and be....and be ...be .be ....be....love.

Stars are alive with every hope of dreams

Every little bit grows into .............dreams

I paint and draw...and things grow....from in.... from out......like teeth or branches. Tip toeing threw gardens barefoot  across skies......... they are feathers in the wind tasting sun light. Warming parts of me I didn't know I could feel. It is my Lady Mab. All covers reached in blinks and breathes. It becomes a she again and she is the motion in the corner of eyes when nothing else is moving....perfect and heart stopping ..........stillness is death and death leaves to many scars............inside is a road map and travelers are not always welcome....

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my weekend

Hi guys,

So Alec and I went to see Iggy Azalea on Friday. It was fun and honestly I enjoyed every moment of it as did Alec. I left the concert feeling motivated to really make some cool stuff in my studio. Iggy is super talented and if you have not check her out.

Also we went out to the market this morning and picked up a few things.

family day

it was a fun relaxing day

Solar teams

So i figured out my sculpture and I have half drawn it. I ran out of steam last night and just couldn't finish it. But I promise my self I will tonight.

Now I have to draw my pinup.