I'm coming back to Youtube. I miss it..even if I will end up in the same events as before....craziness. I don't know; I enjoy posting my videos on Youtube so either way I should just go for it.

I had this fear I was maybe too old to do well on Youtube but as I looked around YB I noticed I'm kind of average age. It's silly. I hope you all check out my new video when it comes out tonight.

I have never done a video like this before so I figured it was a popular topic so why not?

I fill up sketch books like crazy so a sketchbook tour video was easy enough.

deep in the deeper

There is the black hole where my muchness comes from. It's like being in a pool all by my self all alone and it goes on for miles. I keep trying to physically see it. So much of it is the muchness. I ponder all these directions and how they breath and are but I don't know if the definition exists in words.

Making a stand.

I have come to this conclusion may times but fuck facebook. They have always sucked but this morning i found out they gave money to an anti gay politician. So of all things that have made me want to wash my hands of them this is my tipping point.

I'm not posting on facebook anymore. They make money from us so we make them the money they give to bigots. I will not willing help that ever again. If you want to see me and what I do than you can call me or find me here, email me or find me on Sg or G plus. It saddens me that we live in a world were people are so full of hate. I'm a painter and I make art and I may not change the world but I will not hurt it on purpose.

That star behind the left front side of the moon's house

It's so weird that I felt so i special the last few days. I'm not sure why I felt like that but Alec and I just watched The Lego movie and honestly I feel better. I guess I just needed to relax and give myself a break. Life can be hard as an introvert. You are super creative so everyone thinks that means you are happy because what you make makes them happy. Some times life is just fucking hard for no reason what so ever. Sometimes you just need to laugh and be hugged to get threw the day. I'm lucky I have great friends and fans. I like to think they are the same at the same time. Just thank you 

I miss blogging stupidly

It was early 2002 and I was blogging on MySpace nonstop. I really only stopped because an ex kept giving me shit about talking in riddles. I loved talking in riddles back then. It was fun and funny and drove people crazy...insane. I could let how ever I felt out and non was the wiser. Maybe I'll go back to that but I do now enjoy just talking sometimes. Though I know sometimes I'm quiet for no reason...it's peaceful.

pouting under tables likes dream filled silence by Jaws Blake

my life list

hi,

we're just going to talk today......no drawings or illustrations...........I'm having a sad moment so I'm going to do something I rarely do...blog.

I get if you know me I can come off distant sometimes but I do have feels. I can feel hurt and sad when someone is mean to me. A large part of my life people have been mean to me and that used to make me very mad until I read a line from the Dali Lama "anger is sadness pushed outward." That could have been Yoda the more I think about it. It has been a rough few weeks on the inside but I have been strong on the outside. It's what I do for some reason. I don't know when I started and I have no idea why I keep doing it. I think if I was just this guy who could say" that is harsh man....no reason to be mean to me," I don't honestly think people would be caught to off guard. It's hard being a man sometimes....you can't really show weakness. People hunt the weak sadly. They see a dint and then pick at it until the arm fall off or you rip their off. I don't want to rip anything off anyone but it is easy to be a porcupine.

I love this life but I'm human so I have bad moments and I mean to work on them. Maybe I should just make a list and post it up in my studio as a reminder to work on me. I think I will.............

1. be nicer
2.be calm
3. just breathe
4. if you can't do something you want for a day don't get annoyed
5. spend more time with my family (alec,goose,mon)
6. make art to make myself happy not to build a fanbase
7. tell your fans you love them
8.ride your bike
9. smile
10. be a better person not just to strangers but the people you know
11. study Portuguese because knowing your heritage's language makes you feel good

Crows who knows Octopus girl

Ultraman and skateboards eating waffles

I love how people try to dissect my paintings and their titles. I don't make sense of them i call them what ever comes to mind and i paint what ever is living under my eyelids at the time. some times I find old drawings from years back and ink them and then paint them. I monologue as i walk inside my head as if i was writing a book. I know sounds crazy but art is crazy. Colors are crazy...textures are crazy until they move you then they are brilliant! Give it time kid...give it time.

Hmmmm

Hi,

Warning this is going to be long winded.

I've been at war. Honestly, I know how JMB felt now. I'm feeling angry about the racism in the art world. All my but on of my favorite living artists aren't black. He'll only a few aren't male. It's not that I am trying to not enjoy painters from all backgrounds ...it's that it's so fucking hard to find multicultural artists. That are in the main stream. You have to look for "special" art types to see different artists. It's not in magazines or even the newspapers. It's like they hide us in back rooms. It makes me really made for my self and for the public. Shepard Fairy is very talented but I see so many artist on the walls of DC who should be standing information of him or at least beside him. Share all the art you find people! Please! No one with power is going to write about your cousin or friends ...you have to. Ghandi said " be the change you wish to see in the world."

If I post something you like...share it...no one else I feel is going to. I need your help. I am that great artist at a gallery show they put up in the small back room gallery because I'm young and not a white guy. I feel beat up some days by this but I push on because honestly fuck those people! I do this because I love it and I sell a lot of work normally. I just wish I could get the chance to make the world get a chance to see me paint. I work really hard but I feel like if I let people put me in a box of just being another "black artist" then I be left out of a huge amount of people seeing my work. Like the back corner of a newspaper that only a few people will read because it's next to ads for strip clubs.

Help me out here.

Later and love you,

Jaws

Thanks for hearing me out.

Running thoughts

Is it weird I feel the earth quiver? The wind. Seems to have a distant whisper. Maybe I'm on a newer path that leads to my canvases? These deep thought blogs are going weird places. Lol

I've been playing Walking Dead game. It takes me deep places and with Yerba Mate I'm traveling more.

I think I need to start doing yoga again .

Feeling a little better

I've been sick for a few days now but I think my new blog will come out this Friday. I'm making a promise to make one every Friday. They will not all be painting or print videos but I promise I'll give you a check in of all the things I'm working on with photos.

Ok,

Love yah mean it

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So ......Sorry

Hey Everybody
So.. I was thinking to my self ...hey self when is the last time you blogged about every thing and it said "no idea." So here I am letting you know what's new.

I never knew I was like a leaking fossit (not how that is spelled). I am though; I am this person who need to make or else I lose my ideas for making art. I also need music..so badly to let it flow out onto canvas. Even if it's prints. I do love making prints though. I as the new freeing feeling about it.  

Maybe I'll be famous ironicly for print making and not painting. LOL That would be a bitch...three or for prints against 100s of paintings. Oh  well I'll never know until it is or isn't. I do it more for the love honestly but if I sell a few hundred or even one it's a great day.

Also I had a great holiday. I couldn't help but love it. I was around amazing people and I missed a few others like my mom who lives far away.

I want a great life ultimately  and I am having and working on just that.

til next time

Jawara Blake

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