tip toeing into everything inside my mind

My great moments are often noticed by my wife, dog,cat and friends but I think that is what makes them good moments. This one I feel is one of my best because even I think it is crazy but I hope my fingers are not to bloody when it is over but if i lose a bit pare for the course. Gold leaf is coming......

 

So times I go back into my archives or notebooks as some of you say. :P  I like seeing how much I have done and see how much better I understand how to make things better. It feels like re reading a book.  Like time slowed down.  

By the by :)  I have started journaling again. Offline hand paper word art...ooooooooooo.....it makes me feel good to write things just for me sometimes. I can be more selfish in what I write or morbid....mostly morbid. I know I'm weird. But hey you like me so who's weird now?..........ha

Birds are ink against mountains of soup

Hi,

So it has been a  few days since my last blog......how goes it? I'm good...a bit on edge I think but good. I think I miss Carlos....we used to talk all the time and now we moved and I never see him.....it's been a week in the amazing new place but I miss the simple neighborhood. I should just call and visit........weird people problems I guess. I sometimes wish I should turn them off. Like find the nob and click it to 2. I need to paint more but I have no real canvases. I need to get up and go grab some tomorrow before work. I've been wondering if I'm moving forward in my art or if I should keep my dot.com. I'm not sure anyone looks at it at all. I need new cards so people visit it and leave comments. I should just wash it out and start it over again so it is beautiful...........art minds are like camp fires...so much burning at one time fighting against the cold night air against the night. hmmmmmmmmm.....thoughts in the fourth wall.

Hmmmm

Hi,

Warning this is going to be long winded.

I've been at war. Honestly, I know how JMB felt now. I'm feeling angry about the racism in the art world. All my but on of my favorite living artists aren't black. He'll only a few aren't male. It's not that I am trying to not enjoy painters from all backgrounds ...it's that it's so fucking hard to find multicultural artists. That are in the main stream. You have to look for "special" art types to see different artists. It's not in magazines or even the newspapers. It's like they hide us in back rooms. It makes me really made for my self and for the public. Shepard Fairy is very talented but I see so many artist on the walls of DC who should be standing information of him or at least beside him. Share all the art you find people! Please! No one with power is going to write about your cousin or friends ...you have to. Ghandi said " be the change you wish to see in the world."

If I post something you like...share it...no one else I feel is going to. I need your help. I am that great artist at a gallery show they put up in the small back room gallery because I'm young and not a white guy. I feel beat up some days by this but I push on because honestly fuck those people! I do this because I love it and I sell a lot of work normally. I just wish I could get the chance to make the world get a chance to see me paint. I work really hard but I feel like if I let people put me in a box of just being another "black artist" then I be left out of a huge amount of people seeing my work. Like the back corner of a newspaper that only a few people will read because it's next to ads for strip clubs.

Help me out here.

Later and love you,

Jaws

Thanks for hearing me out.